Hello 2015 !!

HAPPY NEW YEAR INTERNET LOVELIES.

What a craaaaazy few weeks! How have you all been? I hope you have recovered from eating too much and are now recovering from drinking too much. I first off want to wish you all a happy new year and I have to say that I am very excited for the new year ahead on this blog. I have so many ideas and can not wait to share them all with you.

To be quite honest 2014 was really not my year, of course it had its great and fabulous moments but it also had times where all I wanted to do was to curl up in bed and never leave the house again.
2014 and I had a very love hate relationship. In 2014 my anxiety flared up and was at an all time high, leaving me in panic, depression and general self loathing. In 2014 I was very stressed at school and generally did not want to walk through the front gates any day of the week. In 2014 I lost friends, and finally In 2014 I was told my favourite person in the whole world was sick for the second time and would not get better.  Wow how absolutely negative of me! I hate being so negative but sometimes it must be done. So no 2014 was not my favourite year and yes I must admit I am very very glad to see the back of it.
 In saying that 2014 also changed my life in many ways. I was given the opportunity to live my dream and work at Compass fm, I got involved in amazing things at school, led a group of people and grasped some huge opportunities. In 2014 I found true friends and met a whole new group of people I will forever be grateful for. I found a wonderful guy who makes me very happy, I got into broadcasting school and am another step closer to living my dream life, oh I could cry just at the thought of that. Finally in 2014 I found myself, grew confident and discovered that I deserve to fulfil all of my life goals.

So no 2014 wasn't the best, but I guess it also wasn't the worst.
I have been working a lot over the new year period and haven't yet had a chance until tonight to actually sit down and reflect on 2014 and prepare myself for 2015. I have high expectations from myself in 2015. I am prepared for this to be my year. I realise that everybody says "new year, new me" and everyone gets extremely sick of it due to the fact that it is extremely cliche. But I honestly don't think it is too bad of a saying really, I mean everyone should be able to have that chance. Although this year, I don't think I need to create a new me, I just need to improve the old one.
In 2014 I lost a lot of motivation, I grew exhausted and forgot about the kind of person I really want to be in life. I really want that to change and I want to once again grab hold of Lucia, the fun, outgoing, happy girl who once was. I no longer want to lie in bed all day and watch endless episodes of shameless and skins until my eyes fall out. (although the new season is out soon and I will be watching it). I want to get out and experience the world. I want to make the most of the things surrounding me. In the past few months I have had to realise how short life really is, and now I just want to get out there and live it.
This year is huge for me. I am starting broadcasting school for goodness sake, and I couldn't be more excited. I cant wait to meet new people and be surrounded by those who are like-minded and have the same interests. I can't wait to work hard doing something I love. I just can not wait to start my journey to my dream career.
I realise it will not be all sweet with cherries and sugar but because this is something I have worked so hard to get, and something I so badly want, I am so so determined to work my ass off. I know where I want to be in life, and I wont stop until I get there.

Another part of my life that I want to improve is my overall health. I know everyone says this, but it is genuinely something I feel really passionate about. In late 2013 and early 2014 I lived a healthy and extremely happy lifestyle. I ate well and exercised every single day and I can not remember a time where I have been happier that what I was during that time. In those 6 months I lost a lot of weight and got to a size I was happy with, I didn't crave sweets and fatty foods, and I actually was healthy. I dream of getting back there. I look back and I feel extremely disappointed with myself. I personally feel let down by myself when I now look in the mirror, not because of how I am, I feel that everyone should be happy in their own skin and feel body positive; but for me its the fact that I know where I can be, and I know that I can be happy, and currently I am not. 2014 threw me under a bus and I went back to my unhealthy ways, the stress got to me and I quickly forgot my passion for exercise and creating healthy, delicious foods. I want to get back there and I am determined to, I just need a bit of motivation and support.

I also have a few things I want to add to my life or improve on...I guess little resoltions...  Here is a little list..

1. Learn new vocab. - Actually read the dictionary and have a notebook to write all of my favourite new words in...( I wanted to do this in 2014. so am determined to in 2015.)
2. Set small weekly goals and work towards them.
3. Do things that make me happy. Have pamper nights with friends, organise a photo shoot, have a picnic.
4. Get rid of the negative people in my life. One of my biggest regrets is letting people get me down. Life isn't about surrounding yourself with people who upset you. Only let those important in.
5. Write handwritten letters to those I care about, whenever I feel like it. Even add little gifts.
6. Learn to be fully happy once again.

I look forward to 2015 bringing all sorts of good things, but Im also ready for the bad. This is a new year, a fresh start and I can't wait to enjoy it.

I hope you have all had a wonderful start to the new year and I hope twenty fifteen brings you great deals of happiness and love.
Please feel free to share your resolutions with me, I really do get very excited when I see I have a comment.

Until next time, 

Lu xxxx